What will you do when your life starts to fall apart? Your job fails. You get rejections everywhere. Your happiness gets stolen. Your heart gets broken. Your future just doesn’t seem to make sense. You’ve got no place to go and all you wanna do is to just give up.
Well for the past couple of weeks, my life felt like a sinking ship. It was as if huge waves are crashing over me. It felt like I’m in the middle of the ocean paddling my way to the other side and all the forces of hell were on the loose to keep me from where I’m supposed to be. I was so discouraged to the point of becoming weak & sick, I lost tons of weight, and I almost lost my senses with everything I’ve been going through. I can say, it has been one of the toughest season in my life.
It all started two days after I said yes to God in helping out His church here in Hope City Kuala Lumpur around August 2016. I was told that my visa won’t be renewed and that I will be sent home anytime soon. I don’t know where to go… what to do… and how to face my scenario. My world was collapsing one by one that I had no control of what was going on. It felt like I was being undressed of everything I have. Things started to get blurry that I started to question my decision. I felt so lost, scared, and devastated.
How can you tell yourself that ‘It is Well’ when everything around you looks shaky? How can you convince yourself that there’s a future ahead of you if you’re not even sure about tomorrow? HOW? We always ask the HOW that we fail to focus on the ‘WHO’.
I don’t know how I am able to smile. I don’t how I’m able to keep living my life as if nothing’s going on… If you ask me how? I can definitely say it’s not by my own might. I don’t have enough courage to keep going on. What I know is I have the Who is behind my weaknesses. The One who sustains me with Strength, Grace & love. My life’s a miracle.
You see, when the enemy knows you are bound for something great, he will do everything to hinder you from your destiny. But despite all his attempts, the God WHO demonstrated his faithfulness into my life will not let the opposition to succeed in all his plans to harm you.
I know God gave me a promise that He will not leave me and forsake me. I know He told me that He’s going to use my life for a greater purpose.
I was asked to let go of everything and to simply trust Him. To be honest, I was scared as hell but then I was reminded that there’s nothing to be afraid of because He knows what He’s doing. It takes a little bit of courage to get out of your safe zone and place your complete trust in His hands. It takes a little bit of FAITH to believe what GOD has for your Future.
If GOD asks you to step out of the boat even if it seems like the waves are about to crash you, Will you still trust HIM?
Despite of what I’ve been through I will choose to Believe and to never give up for I know that the battle has always been the Lord’s and not mine. He’s already won it for me. Though it’s not easy, I know He is for me and all these things are happening for my own good.
He’s after changing what’s within me than changing what’s around me. He’s the God who can calm the storm… whom the winds and waves listen to. Remind me again why I should fret? If the God who can command the ocean to stay calm is the same God who can control the things that’s going in my life, why again should I be worried?
I don’t need to know the HOW for all my troubles. All I need to know is I have the ONE who has the solution for all the circumstances in my life. Therefore I choose to say, IT IS WELL WITH MY SOUL. I WILL NOT BE AFRAID BECAUSE CHRIST IS MY WIND WHISPERER.
Sincerely,
Abby Bern 
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