Abby Bern

Have you ever wished as a kid that you can fast forward your life so that you can instantly become an adult?

I remember those days when I was too young to be able to solve math problems and memorize periodic tables, those moments where I’d be told to take a nap in the afternoon. I wanted to skip time in order to be a grown up so that I won’t need to pretend I’m sleeping until having not realized, that I actually fell asleep. I longed to see how my life would be at the age of 20.

Now that I am way pass that age, I realized that there are things in life that doesn’t have to be in a hurry in order to be happy. Reaching my childhood dream to be an adult only gave me more complicated decision makings and bigger responsibilities. Our goals and priorities suddenly shift into a more challenging route that makes us want to go back to those days where all we think about is our Science Project or creating Essays for our English assignments.

I always have this idea in mind that Before Life Screams 30, I would have a good career, live in my own place, travel the world and visit my dream country-Australia before I settle down, get married and have kids. I wanted to have a secure future and finances where I can truly say that I have lived my youthful days with no regrets and full of accomplishments.

This might be the reason why God has allowed me to be single for a long time… so that I can enjoy the life I’ve always dreamed of. Despite what I’ve gone through in the past, all those heart aches, failures and disappointments, I can truly say that God has His ways of making everything fall into His own plans. There were moments in my life where I would ask God why He allowed some people to hurt you or circumstances to bring you down.

Now, I know why. He made me stronger so that when it’s about time that I need to face the world on my own, it is His strength that I learn to rely on.

Now I know why God wanted me to surrender my very most precious possession and give it to Him, just like Abraham being asked to offer Isaac. He knew all along that the thing I was holding on to the most will be the hindrance for my growth. Recently, I was in the church listening to a pastor, and God reminded me of His promise that if I offer Him my heart’s desires, He will bless me more than what I have in mind. And sure He did.

I can say that God has granted me the things I’ve thought about before turning 30: A good career, an access to see the world more and a life that has truly increased. All I will do now is to wait for my next chapter. A partner maybe? as some would say it… Love will come “Sa Tamang Panahon” (At the Right Time) haha!

I have no doubts as to what God can do and what He has in store. I have learned in all my life to wait upon the Lord and trust His ways.

I’m Excited for the Future!

Sincerely,

Abby Bern