“In the moment of my weakness, You give me Grace to do Your will…”
-None but Jesus, Hillsong Music
This song reminds me that I’m just an ordinary person who has struggles and do go through life’s difficulties.
There are moments in my life that I’m weak and almost giving up.
As a pastor’s kid, most people would think of you as a superwoman. You are perceived as strong and not bound to make mistakes… in short I’m expected to be perfect. You are forced to live up to others’ expectations which is really tiring and sometimes disappointing whenever I fail to do so.
I’ve been through a lot and life has not always been the way I expected it to be.
Growing up in church seems to be fun and carefree. My life’s as if child proofed by my parents… away from troubles and challenges. But no matter how you are kept inside a giant bubble, the enemy will try everything to pop it.
The moment my life met with world’s reality, I realized that I’m vulnerable enough to get hurt. The moment I’ve experienced pain, I was paralysed with fear and cluelessness.
My heart fell in love & was broken too young which led me astray. I became shattered, cold and angry with life. My heart became as hard as a rock that I even promised that no one will ever have to break it again. But then I was wrong. God broke my heart in order for me to see that He is all I need. He made me surrender in order to see that there is healing in accepting the moment of my weakness.
Now that I’m in the moment of being single, it is God who keeps me going. It is His Grace that makes me do His will, follow His ways and choose to be joyful as I patiently wait for the right person the Father has for me.
God also taught me not to allow other people to dictate who I should be but instead live the way He wants me to be. The more you try to please everyone, the more you try hard, the more you end up disappointing them.
I place all my delight, hope and strength in the Lord and now I live to bring Him praise.
Sincerely,
Abby Bern 
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